So I’m sitting in the coffee shop at 4:30 am on a Saturday morning, when I should be sleeping in. Why? Because I’m having another episode, and I can’t sleep, and I won’t be able to until this is written down. This is what it means to live with Bi-polar disorder. The constantly being pulled apart by your own whims.
It’s not that I’m not tired. I’m sitting here yawning into my coffee, but still, I’m here, because my brain won’t let me do otherwise.
The thing about my brain is that it’s more creative than I can keep up with. It comes up with stories that it wants to live in. Such imagination, but not focused enough to get it down. So what’s my brain coming up with today? Star Wars stuff mostly. It’s like living in a fan fiction, and I’m the Mary Sue.
It’s an interesting experience, to say the least. It wouldn’t be all that bad, if it didn’t keep me from living my life. Heh, I made a funny. Did you catch it?
I thought that I've been doing much better. Well, things have been better, but I guess I'm just not 100% under control. I probably never will be.
I know you're not supposed to start a blog off with 'I'm writing this blog', but I'm gonna do it anyway. I need to get these things down, even if they sit in a dark corner of the internet.
So what will this blog be about? Well, it's going to be the stories in my head. The worlds my brain takes me to. It's embarrassing, but what the hell? This is what the internet is good for.
